WHAT IF

Its a bright day outside. And I wonder..


What if I didn't break up with my ex?
What if I didn't moved on?
What if I didn't met you? what would I be?
What if I didn't attached to you?
What if I don't like you?
What if I stopped making passes?
What if I stopped staring at you?
What if I stopped bugging at you?
What if I stopped liking you?
What if I stopped loving you?
What if I walked away?
What if I gave up on you?
What if I chose another man?
What if you just ignoring me the way you did before?
What if you don't like me the way i did?
What if you pushed me away?
What if you don't loved me back?
What if you don't ask me to be your girl?
What would I be?
Would I be this happy?

the painting archer *whoops

It a kind a magic I guess. He's the man I've been secretly loved for 2 years long, and eventually, he loved me back, and confessed. 30th June 2014, at about 10PM a crowded night in front of my house. I will never forget that moment. The greatest in a lifetime! hahah. He's the "hard to get" one, and it makes me more crazy about him. He is always in my prayer, like everytime I pray. I love all about him. The way he sleep! the way he stares at others cause it looks like aiming, or learning others. The way he smiles, the way he talk to me, the way he look at me, the way he studying in the class, the way he played his guitar, obviously all about him.

Dear, my archer
You're ain't my first love, yeah I know
But you're the very first man who makes me feel this way, for sure
and those awkward jokes.. hahaha
Thanks for being the greatest friend, and my whole lot inspiration
I got that feeling, you know
I was praying that you and I will last with an everlasting love
I'm sure we can make this last, just please don't give up on this stupid girl, eh?

and remember, you are always be the first, who makes theres no second and third
I love ya, Ram