17AM

5 days ago, I met a boy. He is older than me of course. He is the judge from my martial arts competition. Well-built body, bass voice, sporty. He is nice, and has a great sense of humour. Well Its not the first time. I met him last year at the same condition. But now is different.

He asked me for the pic that I took last year, but I forget where is it, so I asked him to take a pic again, well, heres the pic, does it make sense? hahaha..

Things running well around us. He often called me, i dont know what for but, he spend 1-2minutes on the phone with me with random questions, and meeting plan. But sometimes he is gone, I dont know where he've been but, he seriously make me worried and insecure I dont know, my head is full of random thoughts.

In our last conversation (on the phone) he asked me to accompany him to watch martial arts competition with him but, I'm not sure I will. Cause.. you know, we just met. I'm afraid of.. sorta things like.. maybe he dont like me. maybe he just play me or anything, it could be any possibility, right? I want to play it cool but its not easy blahhhh..

But, he seriously make me feel good. Even when he nowhere near. Thinking about him makes me happy. Did I just fall in love again? I mean, did I really fall in love again? And FINALLY moved on?
... still a big question

How about my feelings for the "Archer"?
Where will they go?
And, what if he don't like me?
what if he actually just wanna be my friend?
what if he just tryna play me?
what if HE'VE GOT A GIRLFRIEND?!!!
God, please show me what direction should I go?

well, its about one month and a half without your text. I still crazy about you here. And dont know why the hell do I loved you this much, omg. But deep deep deep inside my heart. I love you so much. Even with your ignorance. Its about 1 AM here. I can't sleep because I have so many thoughts. I wish I could break you freezing heart

Hey Archer..
It's been a while
Ah, you know it too, right?
You know I'm having a crush on you
It's been a while
Everyone knows it
I know it's annoying
Everyone in the class are make fun of us
I know you hate those things, right
Please forgive me
Forgive me for being annoying
Forgive me for bugging you
Forgive me for always staring at you behind
I do really sorry...
Forgive me...
You know you've been being my motivation
I changed, because of you
I swear I will be better
and always will be a lot better
It's crazy to think that you'll love me back
There's so many beautiful flowers in your reach
But I will do better, to be good enough
Please, dont go away
You can ignore me, that's fine
You're free to do anything you want
But please dont force me to stop loving you
All those bug, stares,
And too much care
It's all just because I love you
I love you that much
And it hurts me sometimes, but
I'm sure I'll be fine
Just let me love you
And keep this feeling
Cause loving you, It's enough